A decision

I think I've finally come to the conclusion that my upcoming appointment to the obgyn is going to have to be cancelled. Granted hubby has the copay accounted for in the budget but simply put, we cant afford anything that isnt MEDICALLY necessary. His ENT and urology is MEDICALLY necessary, the test to see *IF* I can get pregnant, not so much. Yes, in the long run this is an important test. However, considering I have to go back to work and wont have the time available if anything lays me up AND the co-pay for the hospital is way out of budget. So I'll be calling the obgyn and asking to talk to her directly for options. Medicine is always necessary and will get budgeted in so maybe she'll have another option. Right now I just dont see any other way around it until at least January or later when he gets settled into a new position. So for now this part of the blogsite is in a holding pattern....unless we get extra funding.....or an oopsie.

Not really feeling well today...

I wasnt good yesterday either and tomorrow... damn I hope I feel at least a little bit better. I didnt sleep so well last night and just may go in for an early bedtime tonight. Called the obgyn on Wednesday and rescheduled my appointment for next month. I'm due in on October 12th. With any luck I will have cycled again by that point. With the way things are going I'd better plan on calling her the week before and have her call in a 'script for the Prometrium or whatever because I really have a hunch Im going to need the help again.

Good thing I cancelled though as with the schedulling that she'd quoted when I was in last time the scoping would have fallen on either Tuesday or Wednesday of this coming week. That isnt an option because hubby's surgery is on Wednesday.

I hate this feeling

Ok so last night was the last dose of those pills the obgyn stuck me on. The last three days I've been cranky and irritable and want nothing more than to crawl into bed, curl up and cry. Damn I hate this feeling. I go from wanting to throw something to wanting to cry and back again. After a discussion with my SCSis regarding the procedure they want to do on me I am beginning to question my sanity on being willing to have them do it to be honest. I dont do pain well and from what she said it's gonna hurt like hell. In a conversation with my mommy, I'd mentioned this and she said that it's not necessary to go through it if I dont want and there are plenty of children out there that need good homes. Ok yeah, I know....adoption is a possibility and hubby and I have discussed this. Personally, I'd like to have one all on my own so there is one that not only carries hubby's last name but his genes as well (he's the only boy in the family). Anyhow, things should start ramping up in a day or two and I'll talk to my obgyn and see about pushing it back a month because of all that's going on here (you just KNOW the hospital co-pay's gonna be a bitch and we gotta get the truck fixed).