So this month

... I decided to grab the bull by the horns (figuratively speaking) and get myself one of those 20 strip ovulation prediction kits. The box stated that you could start testing the day after your period if your cycle was less than 35 days long. If your cycle was typically longer than that, than you needed to wait 2-3 days before starting testing. As we all know from previous entries, mine is completely unpredictible. So I waited 2 days and started setting the alarm to get up at the same time every morning so it had the early morning urine to test on.

For the first 10-15 days, there wasn't anything. Not even the slightest hint that an egg was going to be dropping soon. *sigh* But I kept testing. The day I tested with the last strip, I had the barest of lines in the test area, but not nearly enough to denote an egg. That day, I ended up going out and buying another kit...this one was only for 7 days as I was getting close to another monthly period. By day 5 in this test, we got the result we were waiting on.

So I did what any woman, who's been wanting this for as long as I have, does when she gets this result....didn't give the husband a choice. NOW was the time. For 3 days I got the same results and then I ran out of testing supplies, but it doesn't matter. Why? Because after the first day, hubby came down ill....*AGAIN*....due to his friggin sinuses. Fever, nausea, the whole kit and kaboodle...again. So either the one encounter will be enough, or we've missed the window yet another month. I'm not getting my hopes up this time either. Just letting y'all know where we stand.

Hubby's going in for blood work this week and has his yearly physical with the PCP next week. I've told him he needs to get all of his appts squared away before he goes back to nights the middle of next month.

updates

Ok, so a couple weeks ago (or has it been more like 3? I've lost track!!) hubby had that ummm appointment I'd mentioned. Well...he's low and they're not exactly sure why. So that dr sent him to an urologist to see if there's a medical reason for the levels he tested at.

This last week he went to the urologist and they found an infection (UT) he didn't realize he had. Lord knows how long he's had it, and no it's not of the contagious sort. The urologist has put him on Ciprofloxacin at a dosage of 2 times daily for 30 days. HUH? *clicks link* Since when does it take a month to get rid of a UT? *sigh*

Anyhow, once he's gone through all the meds.... he needs to go back in for another "donation" and see where it all stands. The urologist did say that he was NOT infertile. That's a good thing! However, if he's still low...we'll need some help. The urologist seemed to think our problem was more than likely a timing issue or possibly me. This means hubby and I need to discuss what needs to happen next. If he says that I need to test, just to be sure, then that will be the next step. If he says he doesn't want to worry yet and wants to just keep tryin... well, I done told him he better plan on getting busy every other day for a month to make sure it aint a timing issue (no chance of missing then). If THAT don't work, then I can only suspect that I'm the defective party.... and I'm not sure how I feel about that. Kinda like the guys not wanting to know their swimmers are defective, last thing I wanna hear is that the oven's broken (or we're outta eggs)and there aint a damn thing that can be done about it. And before any suggestions come in how "there are other options", no there aren't. If insurance won't cover it, it won't be happening and we certainly don't have the extra to be going through an adoption process.

Results

Took the test yesterday. It came up negative. I cant tell you how depressed I was for this one. Today, I got confirmation that the test didnt throw a false negative. *sigh* Why do I keep doing this to myself? I know if I'd just bought the test and didnt bother taking it, I wouldnt have started. At least that's the way it seems to go.

Hope?

Is it stress? Or did we actually get lucky? I'm not showing any of the accepted symptoms....

However, I'm running 3 weeks late. Yeah, ya read that right. Not a sign of my friend all through February (I was due on the 22ND). Usually, my body runs either a 4 or 6 week cycle, depending on the stress going on in my life. We have to admit that there's been ALOT of stress over here lately. It's actually been known to skip full months, but it hasn't done that in a small handful of years.

Although there's a possibility that I'm not, but there is hope I just might be. I checked the calender and if the calculations are right, I could be anywhere from 3-6 weeks along. I really should just go and get one of those tests, but part of me is afraid of the disappointment I know I'll get if it turns out negative...AGAIN. Seems to be always the way... it gets to be two weeks late, I get excited, buy the test, take it a few days later, it comes up negative and then....my friend shows up 2 days after that. Each time I go through this cycle is worse than the time before. I suspect that's why I havent bothered even picking up the test yet.

Dec 23rd appt

On December 23rd I had an appointment with the ob-gyn. I figured it's be just a quickie go over the results of my scan and bloodwork kinda visit so I wasnt overly stressed about it. There was such a lack of stress that my blood pressure was sitting at a MARVELOUS 120/64 (even after the minor happy happy dance I did when I found out I had dropped yet another pound to make 26 lost).

When the doctor came in, I was told that there were no abnormalities found in the scans (yay) but she was worried about the liver numbers. I pointed out that they werent bad until she put me on those damned meds. She asked if I was still taking them (man dont they read the file on the puter before coming in?? Geeez. Maybe it's time to go back to the old paper files guys) and I told her no, that she told me to stop taking the Metformin because the body didnt handle it right. Once we got that squared away and discussed my last two cycles (which were abnormally abnormal), she decided that it might be a good idea to do a biopsy on my insides *PANIC* and I was sent to the lab to get a cup for a urinalysis...and while there please empty my bladder out. The urinalysis was simply to see if I was pregnant....I could have told them I wasnt. Ya gotta be having sex for that and since I hadnt been (too busy too tired) , there was no possible way that I was preggers. I was told that she was going to write the PCP (personal care physician) and see what she wanted to do but it was highly likely that they were going to want to do a scan on my liver. Well gee thanks! You give me medicine that's liable to fk up my liver and then complain when it does.

Once that sample was gotten, I was brought into another room in the ob-gyn's office. There were all sorts of equipment in there and ALOT of clamps. Guarantee that my bp went sky high. When the dr came in she asked if I was ok (I musta been 5 shades whiter than a few minutes ago) and I told her "NO". Once I explained I dont do drs, nurses, needles and the like very well and that certain drs are more difficult for me (specialists like dentists, opthamologists, podiatrists, etc)..it was understood quickly that I wasnt likely to be pleasant for this.

I expected a slight bit of discomfort, maybe even a bit of pain but boy did I ever underestimate THAT. The pain was sharp, and up ALOT higher in the anatomy than I expected. I know I screamed and began to cry and all I wanted to do is kick the dr in the face. I was offered some meds for it...a shot with pain killers and I said no because when I have this kind of pain NOTHING short of Vicodin helps. I told them they werent gonna be touching me again today so I certainly HOPED they got the sample they needed. I was allowed to curl up on the table for a bit...the pain was much like a menstrual cramping with pain below my belly button and going all the way to my lower back. I was checked on a couple times and brought some paper work. One of the papers was for hubby....at least his aint gonna be painful (lucky bugger). I was also given a flyer on the one test they are looking at doing on me. I told them I didnt want that test because I heard it hurt alot and I was told that if my tubes werent blocked then it shouldnt hurt all that badly. Yeah...BS. I certainly hope that test doesnt need to be done.

Once hubby's test is done, then I have to contact the ob-gyn again. She said something about wanting to put me on Clomid to get me to ovulate but that this medicine messes with the liver too. Gee thanks. Just dont complain to me when the liver numbers go up because the meds you give me fk with the liver counts!!

The good news is, they didnt call me while I was out travelling so the biopsy couldnt have found anything wrong...right?