updates

Ok, so a couple weeks ago (or has it been more like 3? I've lost track!!) hubby had that ummm appointment I'd mentioned. Well...he's low and they're not exactly sure why. So that dr sent him to an urologist to see if there's a medical reason for the levels he tested at.

This last week he went to the urologist and they found an infection (UT) he didn't realize he had. Lord knows how long he's had it, and no it's not of the contagious sort. The urologist has put him on Ciprofloxacin at a dosage of 2 times daily for 30 days. HUH? *clicks link* Since when does it take a month to get rid of a UT? *sigh*

Anyhow, once he's gone through all the meds.... he needs to go back in for another "donation" and see where it all stands. The urologist did say that he was NOT infertile. That's a good thing! However, if he's still low...we'll need some help. The urologist seemed to think our problem was more than likely a timing issue or possibly me. This means hubby and I need to discuss what needs to happen next. If he says that I need to test, just to be sure, then that will be the next step. If he says he doesn't want to worry yet and wants to just keep tryin... well, I done told him he better plan on getting busy every other day for a month to make sure it aint a timing issue (no chance of missing then). If THAT don't work, then I can only suspect that I'm the defective party.... and I'm not sure how I feel about that. Kinda like the guys not wanting to know their swimmers are defective, last thing I wanna hear is that the oven's broken (or we're outta eggs)and there aint a damn thing that can be done about it. And before any suggestions come in how "there are other options", no there aren't. If insurance won't cover it, it won't be happening and we certainly don't have the extra to be going through an adoption process.

Results

Took the test yesterday. It came up negative. I cant tell you how depressed I was for this one. Today, I got confirmation that the test didnt throw a false negative. *sigh* Why do I keep doing this to myself? I know if I'd just bought the test and didnt bother taking it, I wouldnt have started. At least that's the way it seems to go.

Hope?

Is it stress? Or did we actually get lucky? I'm not showing any of the accepted symptoms....

However, I'm running 3 weeks late. Yeah, ya read that right. Not a sign of my friend all through February (I was due on the 22ND). Usually, my body runs either a 4 or 6 week cycle, depending on the stress going on in my life. We have to admit that there's been ALOT of stress over here lately. It's actually been known to skip full months, but it hasn't done that in a small handful of years.

Although there's a possibility that I'm not, but there is hope I just might be. I checked the calender and if the calculations are right, I could be anywhere from 3-6 weeks along. I really should just go and get one of those tests, but part of me is afraid of the disappointment I know I'll get if it turns out negative...AGAIN. Seems to be always the way... it gets to be two weeks late, I get excited, buy the test, take it a few days later, it comes up negative and then....my friend shows up 2 days after that. Each time I go through this cycle is worse than the time before. I suspect that's why I havent bothered even picking up the test yet.